We have been in New Mexico for a little over 5 months now. Some days it feels like we have been here longer and other days I still feel like we are visiting. New Mexico slogan is "The Land of Enchantment". While I am not sure I have reached enchantment", I can honestly say that we are settling in. The boxes have been gone for a while and everything has a new place. I occasionally have to use my GPS to navigate but for the most part I know where I am.
The first few weeks were a little chaotic which I was totally unprepared for. See everything leading up to and including the move happened with such ease and grace that I barely remember the stressful moments leading to the move. We sold our house in four days. That is not a typo. We listed our home on a Wednesday evening and by Monday morning we were signing an offer. Of course there were a few bumps in the selling end but something about it felt so right. Even the parts that should have been hard were easier then expected. Driving 1,000 miles with two children and one infant, while time consuming, was far cry from the circus I imagined.
The hardest part of leaving was the goodbyes. Parties, dinners, and last meet ups with friends reminded me of the community we had built and the life we created.
Moving here seemed to be going so smoothly that I should have not been surprised when we started to hit some bumps. It felt like bump after bump. As our loving melody changed into a country song. The rental we moved into has been vacant for some time. This allowed the prefect conditions for the cat odor, bug infestations, and roof leaks to settle in. The first few days was a parade of new people in and out of our new space. It was overwhelming and frustrating. The time I wanted to spend with my children exploring was spent waiting for contractors.
Unpacking is also not a "kid friendly" event. My boys were both trying to make sense of all the change (move, new baby and long road trip, new house). While it was exciting it was also devastating for them to be away from so many familiar things. They missed parks and asked to go to places that were now 1,000 miles away.
This was the hard part of change and transition that bring up the uncertainty and insecurity. Did we make the right choice?
This strengthens us by forcing us to lean into the discomfort that comes with change. Looking back over the last months, my husband and I agree that despite the uncomfortableness of it all we are learning a lot. It also has clarified our values and help us grow together. It has been hard and some days I wish I could slip back into our familiar surroundings.
On hard days, when my children wake up much to early and cranky I often sip my lukewarm tea and sometimes I will see hot air balloons. To my children they are magical. To me they are familiar. Growing up in southern California wine country there were often mornings where would would wake e up and see hot air balloons in the sky. It is just enough familiar to make me feel like this can be home.
NOTE: With so much change and newness in life I moved my blog to new space and fresh start. That is really what Albuquerque has been for us. A new chapter. My goal is to write more. I feel like this is always my goal- but now it has become a priority. I want to make the most of this season and for me writing bring so much clarity. I hope you will join me on this adventure.
The first few weeks were a little chaotic which I was totally unprepared for. See everything leading up to and including the move happened with such ease and grace that I barely remember the stressful moments leading to the move. We sold our house in four days. That is not a typo. We listed our home on a Wednesday evening and by Monday morning we were signing an offer. Of course there were a few bumps in the selling end but something about it felt so right. Even the parts that should have been hard were easier then expected. Driving 1,000 miles with two children and one infant, while time consuming, was far cry from the circus I imagined.
The hardest part of leaving was the goodbyes. Parties, dinners, and last meet ups with friends reminded me of the community we had built and the life we created.
Moving here seemed to be going so smoothly that I should have not been surprised when we started to hit some bumps. It felt like bump after bump. As our loving melody changed into a country song. The rental we moved into has been vacant for some time. This allowed the prefect conditions for the cat odor, bug infestations, and roof leaks to settle in. The first few days was a parade of new people in and out of our new space. It was overwhelming and frustrating. The time I wanted to spend with my children exploring was spent waiting for contractors.
Unpacking is also not a "kid friendly" event. My boys were both trying to make sense of all the change (move, new baby and long road trip, new house). While it was exciting it was also devastating for them to be away from so many familiar things. They missed parks and asked to go to places that were now 1,000 miles away.
This was the hard part of change and transition that bring up the uncertainty and insecurity. Did we make the right choice?
This strengthens us by forcing us to lean into the discomfort that comes with change. Looking back over the last months, my husband and I agree that despite the uncomfortableness of it all we are learning a lot. It also has clarified our values and help us grow together. It has been hard and some days I wish I could slip back into our familiar surroundings.
On hard days, when my children wake up much to early and cranky I often sip my lukewarm tea and sometimes I will see hot air balloons. To my children they are magical. To me they are familiar. Growing up in southern California wine country there were often mornings where would would wake e up and see hot air balloons in the sky. It is just enough familiar to make me feel like this can be home.
NOTE: With so much change and newness in life I moved my blog to new space and fresh start. That is really what Albuquerque has been for us. A new chapter. My goal is to write more. I feel like this is always my goal- but now it has become a priority. I want to make the most of this season and for me writing bring so much clarity. I hope you will join me on this adventure.
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